" I've thought about the guy situation and decided just to forget about him. It's really hard, but right now I guess it's the best thing. I mean all I wanted was to be friends, get to know each other, but I guess he doesn't want that right now. So, I guess I need to stop wasting my time on something that's never going to happen right? We'll see...."
I guess "We'll see..." turned into a marriage 4 years later!
Anyways, the wedding was everything "us". It wasn't a strict, traditional wedding, nor was is a wacky wild one. It was just a Ross and Kassie wedding with family and close friends. Perfect and memorable.
The honeymoon was breath taking with sun sets and sun rises. Dolphins jumping out of the water & seagulls flying with pelicans trying to catch fish. My favorite was horseback riding on the beach, which is a rare activity to do. There are only around 5 beaches in the whole world that will allow you to do that, and even then you have to have your own horse. It was amazing watching Ross discover why I love horses & riding so much. By the end he was mouthing "I want one!" Jacksonville Zoo is the best zoo ever by the way! So many stories. To put it simply I couldn't have picked a better place to start the beginning of our life together. We had the beach, military history at Fort Clinch, helicopters flying over us doing training, horses to ride and horses that where wild (another rare thing in this world today), fudge, coffee, but most importantly each other. I was sad when it ended and we can't wait to go back.
How ever, when we came back....reality hit us hard in the face. Work. Cleaning. Name change. Car Insurance. Health Insurance. Renter's Insurance. New car tags. Change bank information. Rent. Water. Cable. Internet. Power. Start loan payments. Vet bills. Doctor Bills. Medicine payments.
And we haven't even got our own phones and phone plans yet.
It's been a month and everything is just now starting to come together. Today Ross took me to the doctor to get bloodwork. Normally they just call me on back. I sat there for 30 minutes filling out paper work. Then Ross got to witness my normal procedure of getting stuck ten times & still not get one vein....but finally they get it after over squeezing my arm. By the time it's over I'm so white and light headed I can hardly stand up, which is even harder when I have nurses pushing Sprite and crackers in my face with a wet towel. Ross finally realized why I said "You have to come with me" "Why?" "Because you're my husband, that's why!"
Ok, so it wasn't that bad this time. Thank gosh! 9/10 times this happens, but the nice black nurse was there today!
I went to work today. Came home to an empty house. As usual. Everyone says "You're so lucky to have a husband, you shouldn't complain so much about not seeing him."
REALLY? LUCKY? I saw him more when we were dating!! We spent more time together then! I can't sleep with out him being here. I don't feel safe. Every bump in the night freaks me out. I normally go to bed at 1:30am and wake up at 3:15 am, unless he is off then I sleep 11:30pm-10:45am. No lie. Ross jokes with people about how cool his wife is because I allow him to play his xbox in the bed with me at night....until 3am or whenever he falls asleep....women say I'm crazy......NO, if he isnt next to me I cant sleep! I'ld rather him play his xbox in bed with me until the crack of dawn than play in the living room. If I know he is with me, I get rest.
Oh and by the way...every summer when we were dating he was gone doing military training. That's not including the days and weeks and weekends he was gone with ROTC. 6 months from now the military will get him again...for helicopter training, which includes him getting tortured pretty much so he knows how to survive if he gets shot down....and then there is dunker school, and Ross isnt that good at swimming....so don't tell me how lucky I am when I hardly get any "us time" but mostly get "worried about him time"
Other than that, I can't complain.
Well....he doesn't flush the toilet. And that's a new pet peeve of mine. This marriage will be flushed down the toilet if he doesn't kick that habit.
Right now, I'm just enjoying Our New Journey together.
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